how i feel now...

whenever i stay at home i think of her even when come to dinner i still think of her.. and than end up i eat one little rice by little... i have no idea when i can forget about her and walk forward.... and whenever i go out with you guys i still will be very slient you know why? because i will suddenly talk about her... i know my life still have many hopes but think over again without her my hopes when off just like this... and is like a com without mouse and keybored without them can you still move and type?... and everytime i saw the box she given to me that makes me think back the time we were togarther that time i was very happy to have this box given from her.... i even still think back the time i make her smile infront of the phone..... i wish we could be like last time again but once lost will never gain back....

brothers,sisters and me!

bro and sis, i have been brokedown over again and again, you all may don know how i feel and what i am thinking about right? well... i can say that i still miss her alot and love her alot just that i don wan to tell anyone of this and sometimes i don rly understand myself also, and sometimes i get very sad to just thinking of her because of her and give fake smile infront of you all, but good thing that i have you all as my bro and sis, because sometime i get back my smile, you liang is a very long bro to me as i go out with him sometime he make joke and funny things to make us laugh!, but sometimes he get very stressed up and angry and very moody~ and at the same time very hard to make him laugh!! i feel like trying to make him smile like how he make us laugh but i don what i can do!! but if you tell me everything about maybe i can at least do something about it man!! and zheng wei is a guy that you first time see him and you will get the feeling that his very XL,LL,GL!!!! but you know him long le you will tell yourself that his not bad ma! and his a type that very understanding ppl and sometime got problem he will go and help them and settle it, but sometime he feeling down he will be dam emo and need somebody to talk!! zheng wei ah i may not a girl la but you can tell me de right? see what i can do but i know that i cant do anything! but at least let me understand la dey! and carol my enemy! you can take it like a long lost bro and sis la but this emeny ah sometime do stupid things ah!! like that time at hougang mail she walk pass the drain and she know that there is dam smelly le than she still go back there and stand at there smell the drain and i was laughing like mad!! HAHAHA! the most stupid girl i ever know! HAHAHA!! and she always give us disiao siao!~ WAHAHA! but she angry ah! i tell you all ppl die ah! cannot even run away! i tell you one hair touch you give you die ah!! don play play ah!! this type of girl hard to find wor!! very fierce and stupid! and jason and sinyi and guo ming and kah liang and mandy lazy type la dey! sorry ah!! i hope i can understand more about you guys =)